The courage behind research

How many times in your life have you made excuses for not doing something? And how many of those were really, really good reasons for your behavior? I’ve become more honest with myself, and I have found that I often had an excuse and sometimes- well most of the time- it seemed valid. I have heard people say “excuses are expensive” and I really thought that only concerned money, until I had chicks no-more-excusesto raise. I was busy mixing feed in the wee hours of the morning when I found myself thinking “there really is no room for excuses where research is concerned”. Even being tired does not count.  If only it were possible to write in my thesis that I missed a day of data collection because the previous day was hectic!

 

In all my interactions with researchers that inspire me, I have realized that none of them is comfortable with making excuses for themselves, particularly where their work is concerned. So then I decided to drop them like hot potatoes. The question I was left to answer was “what do I substitute them with?”   The answer was quite simple really: COURAGE. I mean is it not courage that led to where I am? There were a million reasons why I shouldn’t be a researcher. The funniest I have heard so far is that no one will want to marry me…

Anyway, having to write and defend a proposal takes guts! I could have quit even before I begun or run for the hills when I discovered that I had to change my project proposal more than once (apparently that is normal).

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I’m of the view that researchers are courageous not because they are just stubborn and never give up on their projects. I think they are courageous because they usually don’t know if their expectations will be met; they are exploring new, unknown territories — yet they persist, and complete their projects despite opposition.  At this stage of my research I think the most vital work I have to do is working on myself, ensuring that I don’t compromise my work because of excuses, no matter how valid they sound. Now I know it is definitely not the absence of challenges and very nasty surprises that drives researchers onwards. But rather, it is the conviction that their chosen purpose in life must prevail.

Time to move mountains!!!

After the first storm

I was born in the Eastern Cape, to parents that are both educators. Which kind of explains why I love being in the know. They gave me the name Siphokazi, which directly translates to “a very big gift” 🙂 Awesome is it not? I guess that is what I am to the Nyeleka family, my clan. Growing up, my siblings and I were not allowed to be without a book (school books didn’t count!) and school was non-negotiable, unless of course we were feeling under the weather.

My parents have always encouraged me to pursue postgraduate studies – following in their footsteps. So by the time I graduated with BSc Animal Production Science, I needed very little encouragement to continue with my studies. I was already hooked by academia! With the final persuasion coming from my supervisor, I decided to enrol for an MSc degree in Animal Production Science with special interest in broilers.

Why broilers? You may ask… Well, back in the day my grandmother ran a poultry farm for more than a decade, but she had to shut it down due to ever rising feed costs. The whole experience was frustrating for me because I watched her let go of something she truly loved, particularly because she used the farm as means to give the village women financial security. So when the opportunity came for me to try and find alternative ways to help people like my grandmother, I grabbed it with both hands. Thus, my MSc research focuses on using alternative protein sources in broiler diets, with the ultimate goal of feed cost reduction.

Developing a proposal...
Developing a proposal…

To my surprise, though, the whole process of developing a research concept has been very challenging for me. Developing a proposal was supposed to be as straight-forward as writing that final exam at the end of the year… What I found to be exceptionally challenging was that I knew what I wanted to do, however developing a research concept around it was very tricky. How could I distill my thoughts into an idea that was testable, workable, valuable, in the space of a single degree…?

Preparing for my "babies"
Preparing for my “babies”

What kept me going back to the drawing board was and still is the ultimate goal and that is to make a difference. Giving up would not only be letting myself down, but my grandmother too and that is something I would never be able to live with. I guess it is true that “Anyone who says sunshine brings happiness has never danced in the rain,” because the happiness I felt after an approved proposal is beyond description.

My second year promises to be an interesting adventure, with more trials and some lab work. I look forward to it, really. Do I still think I can solve the world’s problems? Yes! But like RJ Benjamin says in one of his songs “Changing the world, One day at a time…” I guess in my case its one broiler at a time.