Working and swiping my way towards a guiding thread

At the age of 32, it feels like a very long time ago that I worked as a journalist in my early 20s. It is the profession I saw myself growing into when I was younger and the one that I approached with vigour after school through various internships. My ongoing freelance work next to my first-year university studies at a local newspaper in Germany offered me a glimpse into the politics embedded in conveying stories through this medium. Realising its limitations made me pursue my anthropological studies even harder, which, unlike the form of journalism I had encountered, permitted a long-term, in-depth approach to analysing everyday phenomena. At the same time, it allowed me to cultivate my passion for writing. My university studies also led me to permanently re-locate to South Africa 10 years ago.

Fast forward: currently, I am a PhD candidate at the Department of Anthropology at the University of Cape Town. Here, I have spent the past three years doing research and writing my thesis on the behavioural use of the dating application Tinder. This involved using Tinder to recruit study participants and grappling with how – and with whom – intimacy is cultivated in Cape Town, starting with right and left swipes on online profiles. The focus of the ethnography resulting from this lies on how individuals perceive themselves and others in a partially cybernated process of relating and the ways in which these perceptions are reflected in interactions. Identity formation as well as the interplay of structural influences and individual behaviour also played a crucial part in my ethnographic studies on male refugees in Cape Town and on suburban neighbourhood surveillance. Both were awarded with a distinction and published as monographs with Langaa RPCIG. I am also currently contributing to a research project on professional identity formation among first-in-family students at the faculty of engineering at UCT.

My journey thus far writes itself rather easily. However, it is only now that I feel I can draw out a consistent, guiding tread across it. For the most part, things seemed topsy-turvy and very much characterised by unknown factors, including visa issues and concerns about securing financial support. What I discovered relatively early as a theme and as fuel to keep me pursuing my studies is a passion to engage with the lived experiences of people. Looking back, I can now claim this to be evident in my endeavours to date, just like my profound interest in facilitating dialogue across and beyond disciplines. Yet, these things only filtered through more clearly with time. I consider myself lucky in having developed a genuine desire to immerse myself in study contexts in an engaged, enthusiastic manner. It is even luckier that I had the opportunity to nourish this desire throughout my scholarly career so far. This includes my studies at UCT and my work as a Junior Research Fellow at the Health Economics and HIV/AIDS Research Division (HEARD) at the University of KwaZulu Natal. The most interesting moments have been the ones in which heads were conceptually bumped. Working on and with digital technologies for my PhD got me involved in the Digital Humanities (DH) community and I am among the founding members of the Digital Humanities African Network (DHAfricaN), which is a needed extension of DH scholarship towards perspectives of the global South. I also started regularly contributing to workshops and conferences across the globe, which the ongoing global pandemic has rendered more accessible in an online format. These engagements have been particularly exciting, as they opened up a lot of ground for discussion and, thus, for me to spin the proverbial ‘guiding tread’ of my voyage further.

I am still eager to extend discussions even further and make them accessible to a wider audience – not specific to disciplines and not even necessarily limited to the academic ivory tower. This is why I started writing my own blog (The Junck report), which is my way of marrying my love for social anthropology on the one hand and my persistent devotion to journalism on the other. As I am typing away on my thesis and thinking about how my many years at university (mostly at UCT) have shaped me, I want to share more of my experiences and, through them, connect with people on a similar or perhaps rather different journey. The SAYAS blog is a great opportunity to do so.


PhD(ing) During A Global Pandemic

Is academic pressure really necessary?

Being a final year PhD student amid a global pandemic was never part of my grand five-year plans! However, life happened, and I had to soldier on regardless of the circumstances. Given that this is my final insert, I thought I should reflect on what a year this has been. 

The COVID-19 pandemic revealed a lot of social ills, the major one being how unequal South Africa is. These inequalities are detrimental in the educational sphere; this was evident at our basic education level in various ways. 

Exhibit A: The ‘privileged’ community was waging for learners to return to schools because schools were safe enough for students to continue learning. However, in rural schools, where a vast majority of schools still have pit latrines, returning to school would have had catastrophic results.

The social divide was also apparent in higher education. The historically advantaged universities were able to develop online platforms and swiftly crossover to online learning while the historically disadvantaged universities struggled to adapt to the unforeseen changes. The challenges in adapting to online learning and data availability did not only impact undergrad students but caused major hiccups to postgraduate students’ research. I will briefly share how I was affected and also share the experiences of my friend Lerato Sokhulu, a second-year UKZN PhD student in Education.

The lockdown period came as a shock to everyone; as a final year student, my anxiety levels were extremely high. The enforced regulations meant that I could only work from home. Fortunately for me, my research is mainly based on supercomputers which I could still access from home. However, the internet connection at home is much slower and sharing my work environment with nine other people was not easy. It took a while for me to adapt, and this inevitably delayed my progress. The most challenging period was when my mother fell ill, as the oldest sibling, I had to look after her until she had fully recovered. Again, my research progress was stalled. Given all the challenges I faced, I was stunned when I found out that the academic calendar was only extended for undergraduate students. All submission deadlines for postgrads remained the same!

Mine was not a single story; Lerato also shared how this period impacted her research. For her project, she had to conduct multiple interviews with individuals and focus groups. When the lockdown started, she had only just begun interviewing a few individuals, the implementation of the lockdown rules meant she could no longer conduct interviews face to face. She had to change her entire methodology and move to digital platforms. Another hurdle she faced was working from home. The university environment provided constant internet connection which is vital for her studies; such luxuries were not immediately available when she moved home. The transition was not easy.

I have heard similar stories from colleagues and even students from other universities. What is mind-boggling is how the university officials saw it fitting that the submission deadlines remained; this highlighted how university bureaucracy prevents student involvement when decisions directly affecting students need to be made. Top-level management is often completely out of touch with student realities and fails to create platforms that will bridge this gap. 

By not extending the submission deadline were they implying that postgrad students were immune to the difficulties that resulted in the extension of the undergrad calendar? Were there any student supervisors present when this decision was made? Was there a student representative present? To me, this decision just highlighted how universities could create unnecessarily toxic environments for postgrad students. These toxic environments evidently drive students away from academia. I am set to complete my PhD in time, but keeping up with the tight deadlines resulted in me neglecting my mental and physical health. I am not disregarding the fact that a PhD should be challenging; it is the highest level academic qualification and should be demanding. However, some of the academic pressures result in more harm than good.

I know that to some I might sound like a broken record whenever I mention these issues; however, I genuinely believe that once the systems are changed students from all walks of life will thrive in academia. A positive highlight was when the university provided online counselling sessions for students and introduced online support groups; this was a step in the right direction. It is these kinds of actions that will ensure that the academic space becomes genuinely transformed.

As unexpectantly gruesome as this year was, what was beautiful to see is the resilience of the human spirit. Although the systems of this world divide us in so many ways, our hearts always resonate with how the human spirit triumphs even when faced with death.  Since this blog is my last piece, I saw it fitting that I leave you with a piece of me: 

We are the Universe

As black hole minds pull us to a place of no escape

May our thoughts lead us to the remembrance of the beauty of co-existence

That without the dust, even the brightest star could never come to life

Let the collision of our souls ignite Milky smiles.

Even when the dark energy of alien thoughts tries to pull us are apart,

We will gravitate to the truth of common origin.

When we look up at the diamonds that brighten the night sky

May we remember; their magic is engraved in our DNA.