The Greatest Student to Ever Live: An Exaggerated Biography

23 years ago, the world welcomed a young boy into its midst – a boy who would one day become a man (as most, but of course not all, boys have a tendency to do, given the progression of time and whatnot, but not negating gender fluidity and with a deep respect for trans rights). That boy was named Mukhtaar Waja, and is both the subject of this biography, and the author of it. Please, hold your applause.

Me and my Ghostwriter

I’m currently doing an MSc Geography degree at Wits University, researching healthcare practitioner’s perceptions of the relationship between climate and mental health (read: I am so tired). The relationship between climate and mental health is fascinating, and research on this topic has presented quite compelling findings, suggesting that increases in temperature are to blame for increases in hospital admissions for schizophrenia, bipolar disorder, neurotic disorder and mania. Increased hours of sunshine may also adversely impact bipolar disorder and suicide rates, while improving depressive symptoms. However, most of this research uses basic correlation to reach these conclusions and – say it with me – correlation does not equal causation. Mental health is complex, its manifestations influenced by socioeconomic and biological factors that may act independent of climate – and most of the existing research on this topic does not engage with these factors. My research examines how healthcare practitioners perceive this potential relationship, and if they have observed this relationship in the cases they have worked on. I am currently in the data collection phase of my research and, in my humblest of opinions, it is the best research to ever be done in the history of the universe. I’m kidding, it’s been alright; it’s going alright.

It is shocking to say out loud – though less so to type – but I have been at Wits University for five years now. I began my academic journey in 2018, majoring in Geography and Psychology. I had chosen Psychology because it seemed practical and useful, and I chose Geography because I absolutely loved the subject! My aunt was a geography teacher and she had tutored me in the subject all through high school, fostering in me a passion for the subject that teaches us how the Earth – that massive blue marble we call home – functions, with all its intricate systems working perfectly to create an endless cycle of erosion and creation, of destruction and… another word for creation. It’s a cycle we are a part of! A cycle we have actually not been good for. We’re a real problem.

During my second year of university, my aunt passed away, which was less than ideal for everyone involved. I remembered how proud she was that I was continuing with geography into university, and that I was one of the top geography students in my year – an accomplishment I completely owe to her. I owe my position as a Masters student to her. I would never have had the motivation to go this far if she wasn’t in my thoughts – all through Undergrad, all through my Honours year, and still now.

I am excited to venture further into that dark, dangerous world of academia, with all its many degrees, and unending application processes that never seem to work properly and always end up with me being ping ponged around the registration office with Olympic precision. There is so much to be explored in the field of geography, so much still to be understood about the planet we live on – and if anyone’s going to understand it… it probably won’t be me, honestly, but I’m going to try! And all the while, I’ll be blogging that journey – right here, with you, dear reader.

Anyway, with me fast approaching the word limit and you having other commitments to attend to, I bid you farewell. I hope you had a pleasant read, and I just want to say: you’re welcome. It is my greatest pleasure to be your new role model. See you in the next blog!

I am if you are, and if you aren’t I still am.

I am…

Take a moment. Breathe in. 

Say, “I am…” and the first few things that come to mind. Notice how these thoughts feel. Any words that follow “I am…” have the power to mould and manoeuvre your sense of self.

I am human. I am curious. I am kind. It is perhaps one of the greatest instincts of the human condition to attach ourselves to a sense of identity. This may be rooted in connection, community or companionship.  Perhaps identity stems from creation, control, or ceremony. To construct a comfortable and assured interaction with the environment, we tell ourselves (and those around us) who we are. I am not my research, though I am working in the field of sleep science – diagnosing obstructive sleep apnoea in persons living with HIV. This involves tracking the brain patterns of a sleeping patient, as well as their breathing. I am constantly reminded to be humble in my knowledge acquisition.

I am a learner. I am a teacher. I am a neuroscientist. Effectively, this means I study the squishy, convoluted pink organ housed within the skull. This lump of biologically active stuff, which somewhat governs our lived experience, fascinates me so deeply that I am compelled to tell you why it is part of who I am.

As you read this sentence, your brain is making associations between what I write; the sounds in your environment; any aromas wafting past your nostrils; and even the temperature of your body. When you think back to this moment, your brain will recount – within milliseconds – all the sensations activated within you to remind you of this experience.

The average human brain can create about 60 000 thoughts every day!

We can practice calming or stimulating our minds by the type and timing of awareness we employ. I might be so bold as to say this awareness is a series of thoughts. So, what is a thought? A thought is an electrochemical trace that occupies multi-dimensional space in your brain. A thought is the internal experience of how we process external stimuli. This internal experience relates to one’s senses and (new term incoming) somatosensation, or the sensory relationships of our bodies with the space around it – a tickle, an itch, a chill. We even have this epic internal ‘sixth sense’ called interoception – sensing what we feel within our bodies! In some ways, I agree that what we think we can become.

Still, I am more than just my brain’s interpretations of my body’s sensations.

Humans have humanity. We adapt to circumstance and unite in hardship. I am an activist. I am an advocate. I am an ally. I situate myself at the intersection of neuroscience, public health, and social justice. I have more than just a love for science – I have a love for sharing science. This brings me to a chilling (but in no way “chilled”) fact:

In 2020, the Annual Mental State of the World Report showed that 36 % of South Africans are living in mental health distress. Let that number sink in. 36 % is about four out of ten people. I dream of a day where we see this number crumble like the last rusk in the packet. My research aims will likely centre around this dream for as far into our future as I can imagine. This percentage is not the fault of our brains, but a psychosocial consequence of centuries of suffering and oppression.

Restructuring the paradigm of cognitive wellness requires not only inclusion of minority groups, but in fact building new systems with excluded groups at the centre of our focus. While I have an ongoing love-affair with the brain, I feel even more inspired by Black joy, trans joy and accessible places for people with disabilities. As I pursue my neuroscientific dreams, I want to cultivate safer mental health spaces and research outcomes for LGBTQPIA+ people, Indigenous peoples and disabled persons.

There is no quick fix for mental health reform, but I am committed to proactively prioritizing both systemic and systematic wellness. I invite you to ask yourself, “Am I?”.